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Greetings Everyone:

I have received a new message from Michael that may be controversial to some of you. Remember I am just the messenger so please do not shoot me!

Remember Michael has changed because he's transformed into spirit and lives in complete love. His perceptions of things are different then we have. Also he always had a very kind and loving spirit cheap nike air max 2019 , much different than most people.

I trust that this message will be a blessing for you.

The messenger Cherokee Billie

"This is Michael here. I'm so glad that Cherokee Billie was inspired to post about forgiveness. Please remember to think and act with forgiveness as you read what I have to say. Many years ago I understood how important it was to forgive. That's why I did not attack people who had hurt me or my family. I knew that by forgiving them I was the stronger person. Many people thought I was very weak, but they have no idea how much I put up with all my life and I did not become embittered cheap air max 2019 , instead I chose the path of forgiveness.

There is going to be controversy about my death for years and years to come. It's going to take many years before all of the doctors who gave me medications will come to trial. I feel great remorse for Doctor Murray. He had only been in my life for two months and he did his very best to try to get me to cut back on medications and he would also reduce the medications without my knowledge. Whenever he did I knew the difference and would beg him for more. This man really needed the job and I knew I could get him to do things he really didn't feel right about. Before he was my doctor there was always a doctor who would give me whenever medications I wanted. These were available to me worldwide; it was not only in America.

Today's society refuses to accept responsibility for their actions and I won't do that. I used every trick I could to get medications that would totally numb my feelings. After the 1993 incident in Santa Barbara where I was photographed naked by the Sheriff's department, I became so unhappy that I turned more and more to drugs to kill the pain. This is one of the main reasons why my marriage to Lisa Marie disintegrated. She just could not tolerate what I was doing because it was exactly like what had happened to her father.

I wanted to become a father because I had so much love I wanted to give and I knew that children love unconditionally. Having my children did help me from going over the edge with drugs many years before. Had I not had these wonderful children I probably would have succumbed to a drug death years before my demise. I made sure that they never saw me in a drugged out state. I was able to keep my addiction from most people.

I was so tired that final day and I really just wanted to be completely knocked out. Doctor Murray did try other medications because he really didn't want to give me the Propofol. I was persistent until he did give me what I wanted. When he realized I was not breathing he panicked and was afraid to call the paramedics. He was really in a state of shock and didn't think or act correctly. Even if he would have called paramedics I was already gone. I watched everything that happened from above and the fear Doctor Murray felt was enormous. He immediately tried to revive me. When he knew I was gone the panic he felt was overwhelming and he called people he thought who could give him advice about what to do. He knew he was in trouble because of my death. I think his reactions were quite normal and anyone would panic under those circumstances.

The one thing I regret is that he had Prince witness my death. I know that Prince is strong and will recover cheap nike air max 2018 , but the memory will stay with him forever. Prince is such a remarkable young man and is going to be an incredible leader in my family.

Doctor Murray will have to account for his actions for that day not only to the legal system, but to God. Have mercy upon him and pray for him because he did try to do the best he could with me. If it hadn't of been him with me that day cheap air max 2018 , it would have been some other doctor. This will be the last time that I address the day that I died and passed into the Divine Light. I will provide at other messages, but do not expect another message or reply about my death.